aside from being a great weekend-it opened up opportunity for blake and i to grow closer together. and for me to learn a lot about myself-this usually comes with a price (its inevitable, the lord always knows how to get my attention). a price like...loosing luggage and feeling like i'm roughing it in front of people i just met for a day and a half. i'll be honest and say i thought it'd be easier than it was on me... and i was a little humiliated and shamefully embarassed with my diva behavior-despite toughing it out with a semi poor attitude. the lord, just through a day and a half of lost luggage, completely used this time to teach me vulnerability in unknown places. i'm working on really allowing the lord to open my heart up completely- he's so sweetly showing me that it's okay to break down the "security walls" in front of people i don't know one hundred percent.. and by doing it sweetly, i mean, he's blessed me with this amazing man in my life who is constantly reassuring me that he is always on my team, always. i see the importance of relationships and the jealously the lord has to have an undivided relationship with each of his children through blake so much. just through his undying sacrificial encouragement he brings into my life everyday- its unending. and to imagine that the lords encouragement and support is a thousand times more than what blake shows me everyday, wow.. i can't even imagine. praise Christ.
seriously. praise Him. praise Christ for blessing me with a man in my life who is so Christlike- its contagious- who's so selfless its emotional- who's so encouraging its overwhelmingly uplifting- and who is genuinely pushing me daily to be more and more of a woman of God. there is no body else in my life who does this, nor, is there anyone else in my life who has ever come close.
i can kind of come close to imagining the lord's love for his children when blake gives me a hug or when he smiles at me.
"God smiles when we praise and thank Him continually. Few things feel better than receiving heartfelt praise and appreciation from someone else. God loves it, too… An amazing thing happens when we offer praise and thanksgiving to God. When we give God enjoyment, our own hearts are filled with joy" ~Rick Warren
since blake and i started dating, i have never cried more in my life. not tears of saddness- these tears are tears full of overwhelming thankfulness to the ONE who created me...to the ONE who looked down on me, a filthy sinner, and said, "My child, I want to give you this gift-(Blake). I want you to see this gift and think only of Me- enjoy it, for My glory."
i am overwhelmed by a love from a heavenly Father that i completely feel utterly unworthy of receiving- which makes me the most blessed woman (or so i think) in the world. the lord has used blake to teach me so much about myself, about him, and most importantly about Christ.
anyone or anything that can teach us or give us a glimpse of Christ or points us closer to Him is a gift from God.
signed- a thankful spirit.
Hebrews 13:15, 16 "Through Jesus, therefore, let us continually offer to God a sacrifice of praise- the fruit of lips that confess his name. And do not forget to do good and to share with others, for with such sacrifices God is pleased."
but i just can't post this blog without sharing two of the pictures from our weekend. i'll be posting more later (they're all on blake's camera). i chuckle at these two. we are so out of our element. you can tell who is the baseball player though. = ) one guess.
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